INTUITION
Caroline Waters has been through what many people would say is the worst nightmare you can experience. That a person we care about disappears.
- Nobody knows what happened. Maybe she was killed and buried in the Nevada desert. The disappearance has never been solved. I went to USA to help in the search. Borrowed a car from her parents and went to the Nevada desert with a gun. I was convinced that that was the place she had disappeared. I used intuition and dreams in the four months I was there looking for her.
Caroline had plenty of scary experiences on her journey through the dessert, which is a known habitat of various outlaws; loners, criminals and shady cults, who, in different ways, have fallen out of society.
- Among other things, I found cults where women and children were held captive and abused sexually. A group affiliated with the fanatic Moonies tried to brainwash me. They really tried to turn me around. They break people's resistance by waking them up every other hour in the night. In addition, they use religious quotes and drugs. I had to give up the search after four months. The police FBI threatened me to stop, says Caroline, who used the music to work through the mourning and the desperation.
- The song "Missing" was made as I sat in the car crying. A scream with no words. It is nine years ago, and I still miss her. But I don't believe that we people only live one life on earth. It is comforting to think that I might meet Stefanie in another lifetime.
STUDIES
Caroline later went back to USA to study singing, songwriting and electronic composing at the Grove School of Music.
- It was very intensive and I learned a lot, working almost ten hours a day. The last year there, I had my own studio where I produced things for others, as well as, recorded my own album.
She got to know fellow student Elisabeth Waters at school, who became her domestic and artistic partner. Three years ago, the two got married by the justice of the peace in Oslo, and Caroline took Elisabeth's last name. Caroline sighs, slightly resigned, when I ask if she has gotten many reactions after the media "revealed" that she got married to a woman.
- All journalists wonder about those things. It's not a big deal for me. I got married, and the one I married happens to be a woman. I can love people no matter what gender they belong to. And I haven't gotten one negative reaction, but lots of nice looks around town.